Learning Peace

Many people, when faced with having no plans or schedules, having nothing compelling them to do this or that, start to worry or get antsy. To a large extent, I am no different. Coming from a background where achievement is often expected, and having heard occasionally from friends and family that so-and-so is doing this or that, that they've already accomplished such and such, it feels slightly troubling to continue sailing onwards into the vast unknown. Without a sure direction and facing the wide expanse of possibilities, staring into the face of life's long road ahead, I find myself contemplating the prospect of working again more often than I would have hoped, and thus sometimes disrupting my ability to fully enjoy my journey.

But it is also because of this that I must persist. For it is when I am finally able to rid myself of the anxiety of doing "nothing" useful, I will find some measure of peace with myself independent of what I do. Only then will I be ready to come back. This goal - learning to be at peace - is reason enough in of itself to continue on.